So today class we will talk about Lying........

So yes Lying, deceit, misleading - bad right. Yes in many cases evil. But what happens when you are so overcome by fear that the voice inside your head takes over. Lets call him Mr Irrational! Mr irrational tells you that if you don't come up with a reason fast then a close friend or acquaintance will leave you because you are a horrible person. Yes this dude is crazy!!! So crazy that he makes me crazy. You see i have Borderline Personality Disorder, Mr irrational came part and parcel with it. I have gone to extremes to avoid abandonment . I have gone so far as to fake injuries and illness and even death. This as you can imagine never ends how i had intended it to. It usually ends in the complete opposite to be honest, but yet i never learn from this and continue to drive people away with it. The only two people who have ever stuck around both have mental health problems themselves and therefore a little more understanding and insight. Ultimately my behaviour is viewed as creepy and scares people away and I'm sick of it. Just remember Lying is bad people - even if not meant maliciously it always bites you in the bum ;) More later......i need to study